I have officially completed another semester at the university! Today I received the last grade I had been impatiently waiting for all week. This semester was the most intense, so far, because my courses were writing intensive. In case you're reading this and are asking yourself: who? what? when? where? why?
who: me
what: studying to get my journalism degree, with a minor in writing
when: at the present moment, my graduation date is set for Fall 2025
where: a university (for privacy reasons)
why: i truly believed i wasn't good enough (childhood trauma) but when I turned 29 years old, I had an epiphany and suddenly realized I was 'good enough' and smart enough to get my degree. I had always been told by my high school professors that I was intelligent but I just chalked it up to "oh they say that to all the students" but now I can say with (a healthy) confidence that I am intelligent. Plus as I got older and experienced more of the world, it occurred to me that there are a lot of questionable adults running around. So I asked myself, "what is holding me back?" and the quick answer was: myself.
Anyway, I do have a main job that pays the bills, and it happens to be the best job i've ever had. I currenlty work at a public library (no i'm not a librarian, you need a master's degree for that) and it has been the best job because for 10+ years I worked in the retail and food industries and suffered A LOT. My mental health was affected as well as my physical health. If you know, then you know. I rarely took vacation days (primarily cause we weren't given any) and I never celebrated a holiday because those types of jobs never close (exception of Christmas day). Now, Ive been at the library for 2 years and it has been AMAZING! I get day's off every week, and I get to rest on holiday's. I still interact with people but its very limited, which is perfect for me. My mental and physical health has improved so much. It still isn't my dream job, but it is the best job i've had thus far.
I am a full time student, which means I took 4 courses in total this semester. For the upcoming Fall 2024 semester, I'm going to be enrolled in 5 courses! (insert nervous laughter)
I am excited to say that I passed all my courses and received all A's, which means I ended with a 4.0 GPA (grade point average).
To say that i'm incredibly proud of myself is weird for me because i'm stil holding on to many insecurities. But I've been working on myself for a while now, and I will try to relish the moment. I have worked very hard, and I know I deserve my rewards. Even if it does feel uncomfortable.
Cheers!
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